I had this vision for my life after graduating college.
I was going to work for someone for two years, start my own company, and then POOF...success!
That's not what happened.
I mean, I did work for someone for a year and a half before starting my own fashion company, but the whole overnight success thing...that was just a foolish thought.
I was very self-driven six years ago. To the world, that might sound like a great thing but it wasn't—I was lost. I told everyone I knew that I wanted to make a difference through fashion, but underneath it all, I just wanted to matter.
I wanted to do something great so that my life would matter.
After listening to endless hours of self-improvement audios, I created a purpose for my life instead of looking to God to show me His purpose. I was still lost.
"Take delight in the LORD, and he will
give you your heart's desires."
Big things often come in small packages, but for big things to happen, you have to let God mold you into the person He wants you to become to receive those big things.
He is the potter and we are the clay. And Sometimes that means starting small.
Just last week, my grandma asked me to lead song service in her church. She's asked me to do it in the past, but I always somehow finessed my way out of doing it because I don't think I can sing.
This time was different though. I knew I had to be obedient and lead the worship service, but I still dragged my feet to get it done.
As I was walking upstairs to the sanctuary, I felt the presence of God speaking to me and saying, "If you can't handle the small things, how can I trust you with the big things that I have planned for you?"
I had been praying and telling God that whatever He needs me to do, I'll do. Of course, I was thinking big and expecting a great task, but God gave me the small task of leading song service.
And the moment He tested my faith, I made excuses as to why I wasn't fit to do the job.
God gives us tasks that require 100% dependence on Him. I may not be a soloist, but almost everyone who was there came up to me at the end of service and complimented me on how good I sounded. And to be honest, while I was singing, I was surprised that I didn't sound half bad.
I've been thinking a lot about the story of David and Goliath. I admire David. When he was only a boy, he volunteered to fight the Philistine known as Goliath. Saul offered David his own armor—a bronze helmet and a sword —but after trying it on, David took it off.
David was a shepherd, so all that fancy armor wasn't comfortable for him. So, he grabbed five stones, his staff, and a slingshot, and went on his way to fight Goliath.
Goliath started talking trash, and David confidently replied (in 1 Samuel 17:46), "Today the Lord will conquer you, and I will kill you and cut off your head. And then I will give the dead bodies of your men to the birds and wild animals, and the whole world will know that there is a God of Israel!"
As the story goes, David ran to Goliath, took a stone, and slung it with his slingshot. The stone hit Goliath's forehead, and he fell face down on the ground. David then used Goliath's sword to kill him and cut-off his head like a "G."
Kind of brutal, I know, but David was the man!
David trusted God to do the impossible with just a slingshot and stone, while the Philistine was strapped with a sword and spear. He trusted God to do something only He can do in a small package. Now that's faith.
The way I see it is this...you can probably live a good life being self-driven, but you can live the best life possible being God-driven. Let God use you to make God-sized things happen—even if that means starting small to get there.
We all must start somewhere.
If God often uses small packages to prepare us for big things, what's one obstacle in your life that God might be using to shape your character for the next level? As always, I'd love to hear your thoughts on the discussions page.
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