Have you ever felt like God was telling you to do something, but you ignored Him? I'm definitely guilty of this.
6 years ago, I was in a very bad place. I was working at a retail store on 34th street in New York City because I couldn’t find work in the fashion industry after I graduated college.
After work, I would come home and lock myself in my room for the rest of the evening.
If there were people in my house when I came home—there were always people in my house—I would just ignore them and not even say hi. Not my proudest moments.
On the weekends, I would go to the bar or club with friends to tune out all the noise in my life. Times were stressful, and I turned to all the things that didn't help me move forward.
I remember coming home one day, and one of the ministers from Time Square Church (TSC) was at my house. She invited my roomies and me to go to a young adult’s event that TSC had every Friday. I felt God prompting me to check it out, and I thought it could be something cool to do, but I just never got around to it.
Around March of this year, I was looking for a new Bible study group to attend—the one I was attending was during the day on Tuesday, and I would often miss it. Oh yeah, and then there was another issue…I was the only one there under the age of 50. That was a huge turn off for me, although I did learn a lot.
So, I reached out to the minister from TSC who invited me to the youth event 6 years ago. I figured she would know of a good Bible study group to attend. She did. She told me TSC was starting something new, connect groups, and the sign-up was that coming Friday.
I went that Friday and got this unexplainable warm feeling, so I signed up for one of their connect groups.
That was one of the best decisions I’ve made in the past few years. During the last session of my first connect group, I found out about this workbook called, Experiencing God (get that book...seriously), and it's been life-changing—a huge, huge blessing.
Two weekends ago, I went on a retreat with about 100+ of the young adults of TSC, and it was super transformative. I haven’t felt such a home-ish feeling since my dad died. And I was able to release of hurt that I've been carrying that weekend. Yes, I'm human too.
“But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.” — Matthew 6:33
It took me 6 years to get to the place in my life I'm at now—content. I was searching and searching (and creating my own) purpose for so long…praying to God, and never realizing that the He gave me direction years ago—I was just too selfish to listen.
Everything you do or don't do matters and is connected to the bigger picture of what God has in store for your life. We are often the ones who get in the way of what God has planned for us by not listening to His direction.
When I published my first book in 2016, I kept saying, "I don't want this to be a religious thing." So, I decided to edge God out of my plans, instead of seeking His will. When I didn't receive the results I wanted, I questioned God, but I should've been questioning myself and my ego.
Disobedience is costly, but faithfulness is freedom.
Challenge: What has God been prompting you to do that you've been ignoring? I'd love to hear from you on the discussion page.
You were born to do great things. Do them.