I used to have a hard time letting things go, and now, well, I'm still a work in progress.
When I was in Jamaica last week for my yearly mission's trip, the team and I decided to take a road trip from Kingston to Negril. I'm always down for a good road trip!
While we were in Negril, I had a craving for some homemade bread pudding. You know, the kind with raisins and vanilla rum sauce on top.
I've never been a big sweets person, but when you're in another country, there's an unspoken rule (I made up) that you must eat dessert with every meal. So, I found a small cafe that served warm bread pudding.
I paid the lady behind the counter, found a seat, and started eating my bread pudding. Okay, I admit that I started eating before I sat down, but the heavenly smell was just too tempting.
A few moments later, the lady came over to me and said that she gave me the wrong price. I owed her another 125 JMD (Jamaican currency), which is about $1 in US currency.
She must think I'm crazy, I already paid.
I considered the thought that she might be trying to "pull one over on me," so I asked to see the menu. She was a very sweet young lady, but in my defense, I got hustled last year in Jamaica which made me a little skeptical.
The lady showed me the menu, and she was telling the truth. So, I gave her the extra money even though my pride didn't want to because it was her mistake.
When I handed her the money, she smiled at me and told me she didn't have change.
I didn't have any smaller bills, so since I was staying nearby, she kindly told me to bring the money to her in the morning.
I don't think she believed that I would, because when I showed up the next morning, she was surprised to see me. She greeted me and smiled from ear to ear when I told her I just came to give her the money I owed.
I handed her 150 JMD, and she looked at me like I had four heads.
Does she expect a tip or something? No, it couldn't be that because it wasn't that type of a place. I knew she didn't have any change, so I told her to keep the rest, and I walked away.
When we got back to Kingston, I went to grab some money out of my wallet, and I realized I was missing $50 US. This can't be right. Did I drop it?
I looked everywhere, and then it hit me ...
The lady in Negril looked at me like I was crazy because I gave her 100 JMD and $50 US. And she didn't say anything about it because I told her to keep the change!
Oh my goodness, I started freaking out because Lord knows I needed every dollar that I set aside for my stay in Jamaica. How could I be so negligent?
But then I felt the Holy Spirit tell me that she needed it more. I ignored Him, though. I just couldn't let go of the fact that I gave away $50 that I needed.
"Lord, you know I needed that money, how could you let me do something so dumb?" I thought to myself.
I ran to the team to tell everyone what I did, and one of the ladies on my team responded in a soft, calm voice. She said, "Maggie, I know you're upset, but God allowed it to happen because she probably needed that money."
Her words confirmed what God was already saying to me, so I let it go. I mean, there wasn't anything I could do about it anyway.
"Even strong young lions sometimes go hungry, but those who trust
in the Lord will lack no good thing." - Psalm 34:10
When I got back to New York, I reflected on this year's missions trip, and I realized that I didn't lack anything during the entire trip. I didn't miss that $50, and at the end of the trip, I was able to donate 3 times that amount to help feed the community we were serving in.
All praise to God, and huge thanks to the generous support of friends and family who He used to make it all possible.
When things happen outside of your control, let them go and give them to God. He made a promise to you that if you trust in Him, you will lack no good thing.
He is not a liar, and His Word is true. Let God work it all out. You just keep on believing, keep on trusting in Him, and keep on praying.
God has not forgotten about you.
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